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is it really worth that I am studying here?

I think that's really depends on how you think and what I really want.

HOWEVER, the problem is I really don't know what I want and where my future is.

I always think that to make more money is the goal in the future, but I do not understand why "money" becomes my goal.
I don't really care about how much money I have, you know that, don't u?
There are many articles say that "a happiness family, a good relationship, and enogh money" are the most important thing in people's lifes.
I don't want to be an owner of a company, I don't really need to be a wealthy person, I don't really want to get married, then does that mean I can prepare a grave for myself now?

Somebody wants to be the professional in some field, but I don't.

Someone wants to have a very good family of their own, but I don't care.

Some people want to to get something, but I couldn't find it.

Then, I really don't know what I want.
I want to have lots of money, but I don't need so much.
I want to let you have a happiness ever after without worrying about money.
I want to study here, because I know "maybe" I can earn more money in the future.
Everything I want is about money, I know you would say you don't need my money,
but in my opinion, it is my responsibility to make you not worrying about the money.
What I really want except money?
I can't find it.
You know what I mean, don't you